.. Labeling ..

How do you label yourself?

Taiwan's MRT station

i'm quite sure that none who read this blog knows the movie 'South of Nowhere'

it's a drama that my friend introduce me

that's where is get this quote 'i am not into label'

the label refers to how people should categorize you

whether you are gay man? or lesbian？or bisexual?

whether you are TB? TP? andro? or whatever you call it

who cares ya?

为什么要让性别去阻止我去喜欢一个人？

i don't mind the freaking label people stick on my back

call whatever you want

when i was younger

those people on friendster asked me if i am TB or TP?

how shud i label myself?

if u ask me back that question, i will answer u 'i duno, anything.. up to u'

yeah.. i'm not into labeL...

.. 我没有童年 ..

想回到童年吗？

我很想回到童年

回到那无知的时候

什么都不用去想

想做什么就做什么 想说什么就说什么

人长大了

想的事情多了

顾虑的事情也多了

烦恼的事情也多了

要烦的事情不多

但是我在乎的事情太多了

我在乎的感觉 我在乎那一切

当我觉得我在乎的东西受到伤害 我慌了

当我慌的时候，唯一可以拯救我的是酒精

酒精可以让我暂时的麻醉自己的自觉

让自己不要想那么多

让自己飘

感觉很好

我知道有些事情我处理的不好

很心痛

对不起

我又做错了

.. Pathway ..

Left or Right?

the road not taken....

still remember the poem that i read when i was in Form 3?4?

it's talking about the path that he/she took in life

whether it's the ordinary path that almost everybody choose

or it's the road not taken..

i guess i took the one which people would probably jz ignore

when i took the first step out i knew that i wont be easy on me

and indeed it's not for the past few years it's been really hard

but i guess one shall be responsible of what he/she choose

i dont want to give up or surrender

i have my own stand

let me live the life i want.. thank U...

.. Faith ..

do you have the Faith?

faith

used to be my nickname

cz i want to believe

but wad happened in the past

makes me doubt if i am qualify to use this name

and soon i choose to let go

and changed my nick to buggY

i thought i lost the ability to have Faith

until lately i found the reason to believe again

throughout the hardship, i still want to believe it will happen

cz the reason is You....

.. Yamseng ..

不懂几时开始

我喜欢上了酒精冲上头的感觉

让我在不是很清醒的时候

不去想那么多

一起喝吧~

.. 占有欲 ..

你的占有欲有多强呢？

White wine @ skybar..

i guess i never learn anything from the past

still repeating the same mistake again and again

what am i doing?

i am aware of the mistake

and i am trying to correct the mistake

but it's so difficult for me to do that

i've lived with it for so long

it became a part of m3, my personality

i am trying.. really...

i am still trying

当你喜欢一个人

你都希望把他占有对吗？

可是当那占有欲太过强而自己也无法控制的话

就会毁掉自己

我应该是在自残

我讨厌这莫名其妙的感觉....

.. the rule of parsimony ..

something that makes u happY?

i'm da superman~ =)

a simple message

could brightened up my daY~

a simple text/words

could lightened up my entire universE~

a simple gesture

is enough to make a perfect daY~

to acknowledge that there's someone that cares for u

that's what i call as happinesS~

to be able to care for someone that is important to u

that's what i call as infinite happinesS~

everything is perfect when there's u and me~

just a simple and happY us.....

.. LamFung chaos ..

16/10/2010 - Saturday

1Utama Shopping center

lamFung~ ^^

awwwwwwww~ finally i got to see him in person... weeeeee~ =)

a cup of coffee with lamFung? =)

he is the ambassador for the Power Root Alicafe~

lately Alicafe launched their new product, Alicafe white coffee

so so, lamFung was here to sort of promote this new product lo~

see the crowd!!! yellow and green are the fans club colour

and such a coincidence that i also wore a yellow colour t-shirt~ hohohoho

in order to get his autograph, I must purchase at least 2 packets of alicafe (any product) or 12 cans of itu coffee....

erm, i hesitate a while and decided not to get one

cz i will miss his appearance if i queue for the autograph and i couldnt take his picture lo

defeat the purpose of me being there.. =.=

and....... no regret so far... hahaha...

and as usual, LATE!

but not too late la.. only half an hour late.. =.=

owww~ he is too good looking to blame him for the late-ness... x.x

awwwwwwww~~~~~

how can u not fall for a guy like him???

so charming~ so handsum~ owwwww~~~~~~ XD

but a little bit too skinny!!!

what happened to him?!?!?!?! his face! so sharp d! so skinny.. TT

busy signing~

i couldnt get a very clear shot of him although i stood on the first lane

pathetic-nya~

who wana buy?? ALICAFE by Raymond Lam/LamFung~ XD

.. NPCI 2010-2011 ..

a picture speaks a thousand words.....

Taiwan~ Neidong National Forest Recreational Park

flow~

last few weeks i came across Nikon's fb fans page and find out that there is a contest going on, Nikon Photo Contest International 2010-2011

wulalala~ at first i was hesitating.. shud i join or not

actually there's nothing to lose~ jz submit photos.. hahaha.. no big deal.. =)

so yeah.. i decided to join the contest..

in the process of picking the right photo to submit

there were two categories;

A) Free category: works that convey your unique perspective and creativity

B) Energy : works that capture the energy of sights and subject that inspire, motivate, or excite your viewers

maximum of 2 images for each category~

i'm joining both.. huhuhuhu..

although pictures that i took was not a masterpiece compared to the pro, hohooho.. jz wana give a try.. awww~ am soooo excited.. ^^

.. tasteless ..

do you know how to cook spaghetti???

x.x

this is wad i called as epic failure~

i tried to cook aglio olio spaghetti

a recipe from Shirley's bro and mum...

ingredients : spaghetti, bacon, garlic (ewww~), basil, oregano? and i duno wad is the other herb~

boil the spaghetti~

stir-fried the bacon then garlic~ then add in the spaghetti with all the herbssss~

and done~

outcome: tasteless~ wah!!!! TT

duno where went wrong.. aiks.. luckily the bacon give some taste

hahaha.. since it was a fail product, i eat everything myself

nvr mind lu~ my own creation lolzz...

gonna modify somewhere..

so so, i am not that noob after all

i still know how to cook.. although it's tasteless.. lolz...

.. how do U label youself? ..

do you give a damn about labeling?

Somewhere around HongKong~

没有在一起和在一起

有分别吗？

没有分别对吧？

只是一种labeling

我明白

我了解

那些顾虑 那些不安

让彼此无法勇敢的说在一起

一直以来已为可以给到对方信心的我

才发觉原来是自己太高估了自己

需要检讨自己的性格 检讨自己的行为

检讨一下自己是不是真的可以给到信心对方

不需要把事情复杂化

只要彼此都开心，在不在一起都不重要

只要有你的陪伴，只要看到你的笑容

只要看到你开心，那就足够了

其他的都不重要了

.. afraid Not? ..

are you afraid of losing someone/something important in ur life?

nice? x.x

不曾拥有

就不会害怕

就没有失去

很想霸道的说一句“你是我的”

但是没有勇气的把这句话说出口

有时候想抛弃理性，往冲动的方向奔

可以吗？

.. October babies~ ..

HappY birthday to the October babiesss~ =)

happY birthdaY to Yong yong~ (6/10)

happy birthdaY to Joey~ (8/10)

happy birthday to tzi Tzi~ (16/10)

happy birthday to ah Teng~

we had a small?? huge? gathering among our ji muisss last Saturday

to celebrate the birthday of the October babies~

went to Palate Palette at Jalan Mesui~

a very nice place with a nice environment.. =)

Sam, Cindy, LiePeh, KaiYee, wanWei, ahPui were there

and of course the birthday gurls~ ahYong, Joey, and ahTzi

ahYan and ahTeng~ MIA!!!!!

ahYan was having urgent meeting.. so she skipped the first round

ahTeng was having event wor~

ahYong, Joey, and ahTzi~ =)

nice onot ar the cake? hahaha... black forest from Lavender~

not a very complete collection of our ji muis.. XD

ahYan, ahTeng, and ahYee missing lo... ahYee went to China~ aiks..

i didn't join such gathering for quite sometime d

the last time was erm.. when ahYong returned last year? izzit? not quite remember

had lots of fun.. with the games and the tiger.. =)

me and the birthday girls~ hehehe.. leng luiz~

second round at Zouk~ ^^

my first time entering Zouk.. O.o

ok~ at least i've been there once.. although I only stayed for one hour.. alamak~

nvr mind~ next time har... must play till high.. lolz...

see u gurls next month~ =)

.. id and ego ..

i seriously cannot let the id control the m3!

this is freaking serious and i shall think of a way to reduce the impulsiveness of the id

the id is starting to get wilder and wilder

more aggressive more impulsive

which will only do damage to the m3!

the ego on the other hand, was kinda passive with the whole scenario

sits down at the corner of the small room, just looking at the id running wild

but soon the ego starts to realize that it was time to take action

the id shall not dominate the m3

there must be a balance between the id and the ego

the battle between the ego and the id was seriously torturing the m3!

with all the confused and complicated feeling, it's as if the m3 was living in heLL

but seriously, the m3 and the ego understand that the id is playing a significant role in damaging the connection of the m3 with the outside world...

while the id is running free and wild,

the ego will do its best to repress the effect of the id,

and the m3 will really appreciate what the ego had done....

God bless the m3.......

id! stop hurting m3!!!

giv me sometime to adjust my feeling

everything will be ok.....

.. speeD ..

很久都没有这种感觉了

一种跟速度奔跑的感觉

跑越快越刺激

越觉得自己可以掌控很多东西

看着它一直在升100 110 120 130 140

the adrenaline rush直冲上来

再次爱上了这感觉

.. 贪新忘旧 ..

星座书说，

白羊座的人喜欢新鲜的东西

换句话来说就是贪新忘旧

是吗？

一半一半吧~

有时候我觉得自己还蛮贪新鲜的东西

可能是因为我很爱玩吧

所以对新鲜的东西很好奇

有时候也难免会忽略到一些东西

这是缺点吗？

对于一般东西也许这贪玩爱新鲜的心态是件好事

对于那些旅行啊研究啊读书啊，这种心态也是好的

但是如果说到对感情方面的东西，通常人都会想到一些负面的东西吧

贪心忘旧就是不好的~

以前我还真的以为我是很痴情的人

原来我不是

我以为我是很专一的人

原来我不是

但我也不是个花心的人

对感情我会很认真 所以我不会花心

但是我也不是想象中那么的痴情

因为我有了白羊座应该要有的性格，贪新忘旧

嗯~ 应该是这样.....

是吗？ x.x

它陪了我5年~

我还是带着它~ 不舍得把它取代

那我还算是贪新忘旧的人吗？

.. get well sO.on ..

get well soon gina~ TT

i was aware that gina was sick last week

ahHo said that she was having fever... suspected as dengi but she didnt show the full symptoms of dengi..

and so, the doctor didn't allow her to stay at the hospital

and yesterday ahHo msn me saying that she was admitted to the hospital, UKM

omgbbqchickenwing...

hmm... i didnt know it was that serious~

according to ahHo, gina was still having fever and to make things worst she vomit everything she eat something

x.x

i went to visit her with ahHo and uncle

she looked really pale and somehow skinny liao~ aiks...

fast fast recover ar gina.. then we go for fish head noodle~ =)

gina told us that her white blood cell dropped drastically... below 50 is considered as dangerous.. and hers was 19

walao~ shocked of my life...... so freaking dangerous.....

erm, the doctor still cant diagnose what was the cause

mayb because of her lifestyle? or virus attack? or what? unknown yet....

makes me think of my own lifestyle... x.x

k k k.. kinda scary d...

going for body checkup this coming weekend~

hope it can answer a few stuff;

i) why i always look so pale

ii) my dizziness and blackout

God bless~

.. byE jinnie darling! ..

Jinnie Ooi! you ditch me!

go to UK before me.. i tot we are going together next year.. ='(

ouch~ u are gone... poooffff

gone from Malaysia! sobzz.... without you our gang was like no soul!

see what have you done...

as much as i hate u, i still love u de~ =)

all the best there k?

don't disappear ar.. update us... on9 on9.. dun hilang like the time u in penang.. x.x

our family picture!!!

hehehehe.. our blog is coming up soon har.. gimie some time..

i love u, u love me, we r happy family~ our theme song... weeeee~ ^^

wait me come find u!!

or i wait u come back?! hahaha... see you soon!!!!

.. 流浪 ..

travel addict? O.o

i've been travelling here and there since the day i finished my last paper in HELP Uni

can't settle down my mood after getting used to this kind of life

no restriction, freedom is all i have while i'm travelling

do wad i wana do, say wad i wana say

it's all about m3

and of cz with the right people to go with, things gets even better

great companion, great places, great timing = perfect getaway

what more can you ask?

FROM

16/07/10

a one day trip to Sepang and Seremban

with my HSO gang - Shirley, Kim, Bea, HuiXin, Jenny, and XiangEn

a very nice and relaxing place

u can see how much we enjoy that place~

this trip marks the start of my journey.. a journey which takes me one step further to my freedom

19/07/10

one day trip to Melaka

with Shirley, Yupei, ahHo, MingSong + Shirley's fren

eat eat and eat... but the food there was kinda disappointing except for the rice ball

happY~ =)

18-19/08/10

a 2 days 1 night trip to ipoh

with yupei, celest, Mingsong, and his friend

we were there to celebrate yupei's bdae

gunung lang~ not too bad..

luv this shot~ =)

29/08-05/09/10

one week trip to Taiwan

with siaoPo Shirley

this is our trip... =)

thanx for being such a great companion to m3...

it's really a memorable trip.. for both of us...

8-13/09/10

6 days 5 nites trip to HongKong + Macau + ShenZhen

with my parents, grandparents, and auntiesss unclesss (24 ppl in total)

this place looks familiar to u? =)

my family~

18/09/10

one day trip to Genting

as i've promised someone i need to be there...

roller coaster again? =)

21-26/09/10

6 days 5 nites trip to Ipoh

my last stop.... Ipoh

as much as i hate to stop, i have to

my current mood is like... there is no other places that i wana go except for UK

trying to bring myself dw.. settle dw plz.. x.x

gotta start working soon...

cant be sitting dw and do nothing at home

i felt useless this way

anyway, thanx to those that have been accompanying me around the places

i enjoy every bits... =)